iChef Journal [4.28.01 saturday ] i cried today. The past couple days have been kind of difficult. I've been feeling kind of disconnected. Maybe it's been all the stuff that i've had to get done. And maybe more. It's hard when I feel lonely and insignificant. I start to feel sorry for myself and I just hate doing that. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person that can understand me. Maybe i'm being a bit judgemental, but when i tell other people about stuff, i feel like i'm not fully understood. Don't get me wrong, i totally appreciate an open ear, but sometimes i just feel like i'm alone. And then, i'll turn to God. And this is when it's tough. Sometimes i feel like i'm talking to a wall. It's hard because in those times of concern and insecurity, i want someone to scoop me up and tell me it's gonna be allright. I don't know. I'm just not strong enough to get through life by myself. ___________________________________________ | previous | journal (i need a good name) | next |