iChef Journal [5.21.01 Sunday] I was looking through my old notebook, and it was pretty cool: looking at my notes in class, sketches, doodles, and thoughts. Once in a while I'd journal. Here's an old one: I typed it up as is, not correcting anything... It's more of a transcription of thoughts that way... 10/20/2000 FAITH I feel like I have so much to learn. That I am so inadequate. I think these feelings are quite common to myself in light of art, life, my walk with God. So often I ask of myself: Why am I so immature? Why don't I think that way? Why is God such a low priority in my life? And I think and brood, feeling guilty and behind. I like to think that I'm on my way to intimacy with God. But I realize that I am not. Time is not much of an effort as faith. True Faith. Believing in God. That He is. He is the one and only God. He is not just what I think He is. Faith and Works We talked about stuff yesterday at Harvest. About our view of God. Of how we are of such little vision, faith. I wonder about this. From James 2:14 - 25 Paul talks about faith and works. How faith without works is dead. The statement that we have such little came up, that our view of God dictates our lack of faith. It all works together. Since I have such a limiting view of God, it hinders my belief in what He can do. And my lack of faith is a reflection of such a small view of Christ. Thus, in order to grow, in order to become like David, Abraham, I need God. I need an endless view of God. What is the beginning? I don't know. What is before or after that? I don't know. How deep are the oceans and vast is the Universe? I don't know. I do know that I am unable to fully grasp the true essence of God. Yet this, I believe is where faith begins. If I believe that God will change me each day, then He will be able to change me. So each day I want to get up. And ask God to change me. And believe that He will. Not to do it to do it, but to do it because He is God and He is worth putting trust in. I want intimacy ... like David. ___________________________________________ | previous | journal (i need a good name) | next |