iChef Journal [10.30.2001 Tuesday] I hung out with Victor all day today. We ran errands together, going to McDonalds for lunch (99-cent nuggets!), the temporary agency, to the post office ( to pick up my new A's hat), Target, Costco, Rite Aid (for ice cream), and finally back to his place for dinner and a DVD (Akira). Being out all day... ** man, the earth just shook: literally. Had an earthquake down here in San Diego. Gosh, it just makes me feel so small and weak. Wow, just really humbled. It's crazy because God is able to do as He wills. I am just thankful that He has grace to allow me to be alive and safe. ** ...reminds me of just how much time it takes just to run all of the errands. Going to the temporary agency was humbling. It was hard to wait in line with a whole bunch of other people for a recruiter to check if a manufacturing or clerical job was available. All of my so-called accomplishments and education just went out the window. It's not like there is anything wrong with being a Janitor, to sell malts at the stadium, or to sell newspapers for a living. Trust me, I've had a lot of different jobs: from working at a turtle farm ( it's a pretty good story), working at a shooting range, to reparing books at the library. It's just that I think I worked pretty hard in high school and college to do a bit more than what I'm looking at now. I've come to realize that my education really isn't something I can rely on. It's not that I'm depressed or regretting going to school, because I really think school's great. It's just that I'm seeing that my identity as a student, graduate, basketball player, ultimate frisbee team member, Oakland A's fan, Mac user, "iChef", or drummer will fail me. They have all failed me. Yet I find hope in a God who won't fail me, and an identity that is rooted in belonging to Him. Today's errands were fun. I finally got the A's cap that I ordered from eBay, my first fitted cap. It's a little snug, but I think it's just because I have a lot of hair on my head. Rite Aid ice cream's awesome: 89 cents for a single scoop. Victor and I read magazines there as we finished our cones. I have to say that I'm really greatful for Victor's hospitality: for driving me around to places and for providing dinner for me. God's been really showing me that he'll provide in every way. Friends to hook you up, drive you around, cook for you, vouch for you, pray for you, empathize with you, and pay for you when you can't provide for yourself. ___________________________________________ | previous | journal (i need a good name) | next |